Poems from recent hours.

The Black Plague

Peace, I say.
War not!
You filthy mongrels.
This precious substance
Is not a need,
But simply, an
Unwillingness to
Suffer, like
Them poor,
Poor creatures
That slowly
Die, inside the
Black Vortex
Once called home.



Summer

Wondering out on this pier
A lonely seagull dissapears.
Into a flash of the sun.
I hear a splash,
Summer has begun.



Gossip

Cruely, I spread
This disease.
She said what?
He did who?
The notes pass,
The looks flash,
And the tears
begin.
Another high school career
Has been ruined.

Summer= Racy Paperback Novels?

So during the rest of the year, I feel so intellectual. I read shakespeare and all them other things they call "literature" and enjoy it and love it. Every year I also make a pact to myself that I will continue this act through the summer. And every year I pick up a racy paperback while sitting by the pool or lounging out on the grass. WTH!? I do not need these smut novels smearing my mind with sexual nonsense. I mean really? I already know what the novel is going to entail. She goes somewhere, she sees him, they argue and eventually have sex and reluctantly fall in love. Save a few small twists, this is how the stories all go. So why do I pick them up? Is it because they are an easy read, a quick escape that requires no real mental thought? Idk, hopefully I find better ways to spend my summer days.

I just made a little kid cry

I feel bad...kinda. I mean its funny because he is a cry baby and stuff but like yeah i didnt mean to do what i did. He was balancing on the arm of the chair and i kinda shoved him(not as hard as you would think) and i thought he would just reach out with his other arm and grab hold of the couch and he didnt. he fell. It was pretty funny. I was trying to make him feel better but I didnt haha. he just got mad at me and shoved my laptop shut and then told me he hated me. eh, he wont balance on the arm of the chair anymore will he??? lmao. I am such a horrible person.

Water Joe= Best Thing Since Sliced Bread

Dun-na-nun!!! Water Joe! Is it a bird? Is it a plane? No, you morons, its Water Joe. Part water, part awesome, this water has a serious kick. What is this awesome you ask? What is this kick you ask? I will tell you! Its caffeine, YES CAFFEINE!  Just plain ol' water with caffeine in it. I think a very ingenious idea indeed. Plus you know those nifty powders that ahve the caffeine in them already? stick one of them in your Water Joe and wah lah! double caffeine brother. You just got yourself the best thing since regular Water Joe. So, now, go buy yourselves a few bottles of this stuff, drink it, and be amazed. Then email water joe and let them know that I am doing their PR for them so I can maybe make a bit of money. =D

Yeah another one.

This is seriously what I do all day lol. Blog, blog blog. So this time i come to you with an original drink mix. Okay, honestly, I dont know if it is really original. All I know is that I was in the kitchen, there was malibu in the fridge and I wanted a drink. So I created something in my little mind and it actually tastes good.

So you take equal parts lemon juice and Melon Malibu, mix. Then add Perrier Lemon Mineral water to taste, ice and shake, or stir, whichever.

 It tastes really good. You get all of the elements of each ingredient with out it being overpowering.

Tiger Woods: The Men like Him.

Alright, so everyone knows Tiger Woods. Famous for putting going balls deep into more than one kind of hole. But what I am hear to rant about today is the men and women like him. Cheaters, and ones who apologize and expect to be forgiven. You committed adultry. You slept with another person after giving promise to another that you wouldnt. That right there should be enough guilt to stop any cheater in their tracks, but sadly it isnt. Men and women like that are no good. You have broken your sacred word. You have lied to both yourself, and at least one other human being. 

And I dont care if you have issues with your image or whatever, you dont need to prove your self worth by becoming a worse person than before. Sex is no way to prove your self, its no way to show people what you are made of. Life is not a porn, so people dont need to have sex with everybody. Find hobbies that dont include you and someone elses body parts, maybe work on your relationship with the person. People dont deserve to be cheated on.

What pisses me off even more is the people who cheat on their SOs and then apologize and think everything is going to be okay. I mean really? People say "I'm sorry" all the time for things they are not sorry for, what makes your sorry any different? You may really mean it but no one knows that. If you were really sorry you wouldnt have done it in the first place. And who says you are not going to do it again. Yeah you may say so, but you have already broke your word once, why not do it again? So you dont deserve to get a second chance, you deserve to be alone. The person you cheated on should leave you, let you feel the emotions of being hurt like you hurt them. and dont come crawling back, that is just pathetic and shows how desperate you are to be in control of someone to be playing a game of yo-yo. and dont say you love them, because if you truly loved them, then none of this would have happened.  I mean seriously, if you wanted casual sex you should have stayed single and had casual sex, not get with some one and lead them on.

So go ahead and feel sorry for yourself because you are all alone and no one is leading your pity parade. You deserve it.

Abortion: An Interesting Proposal

I have always been pro-life, with limitations. I believe that if you had access to the proper forms of birth control and did not use them then you should pay the consequences for having unprotected sex. I also believe that woman involved in a pregnancy by rape situation should be able to have the chance to get an abortion if they so choose. Or if a woman was mentally insane and her husband, guardian, whatever thought it best to abort that it should be okay. Because I know every life has its exceptions.

The other day though, I was talking with a young man I hung out with and we were discussing the opportunity to have sex. Sex in itself is no big deal if you have birth control and are both properly tested. However, he brought up the fact that if we were in the heat of the moment and neither of us had any form of birthcontrol to use/in use, if I would still have sex with him. I said that I would. Then he asks, "What if you got pregnant?". I was gonna reply "I would get an abortion" when I realized...I would be what I preach against. Them damn horny girls who cant take a few minutes out of their day to stick a condom in her purse or take a little pill. And I thought to myself, "wow, no one has ever made me think, what if it was me?"

And now that I think about I still stand by what I have said. I would not get an abortion, I would bring that baby into this world and give it the best life I could possibly give. I would explore every option, be it raising it myself, or giving it up for adoption, or giving legal guardianship to my wonderful, childless aunt. It also made me go to the store and buy condoms and also research prices on the plan B emergency contraceptive. I will be prepared when I have sex, and after sex I will be prepared for the worst, but positive of the best. Because I am not going to have an abortion, I am not going to have a life inside me turned into just another, depressing statistic.

Things that make me angry v.1.0

           Ok, so, things that make me angry version one is underway. I dislike when people on blogger take the top navigation bar off their blog. I go through people blogs and click next blog when i tire of it or when i have clicked follow and can go back later to see it. When they take of the top navi thing I can NO LONGER CLICK "NEXT BLOG"!!!!!!!!
          
           and speaking of things that make me mad on blogger, when they send me to a spanish or blog in another language. WTF!? I cannot read el espanol or le franco or whatever the fuck other blogs there are in foreign tongues. I speak english, i read english, therefore blogs i go to would only be in english. Dont get this confused with me being racist or white supremest or anything like that. I dont care that there are blogs in spanish and stuff its just pisses me off that they go from english blogs to spanish blogs like nothing....its like wth? dude, seriously? give me back the english. and then they dont skip back to english, they just keep on a-going with the stupid other language that I cannot read. gosh, seriously?

Survival Of the Fittest

Survival of the fittest, 
You gotta play to win.
It's all about popularity
And fitting in.
Our Politicians are choosen
By the suit they wear
Instead of by the views
And opinions they share.
We gotta learn
To think with our heads
Instead of following like sheep
And being braindead.
The world is burning
And falling apart
When, oh when
Will the healing start?

The Cute Epidemic- Best plague we have had yet

The cute epidemic. LoL cats rule the web, along with any other animal that can be photographed doing "cutesy" things. Personally I find looking at cute pictures a revolting waste of my time and I use a lot of my internetz being revolted at the thought of myself. I am so ashamed that instead of looking up how to train my cat to do cute things or how to be a ninja(not that i need training in that) I am "lol'ing" at cats with very bad grammar and spelling.
However this epidemic is the best plague in years, for instead of wasting away into a pile of bones we are all gaining so much weight that the world could do an all jabba the hut reenactment of star wars. This in itself is enough to keep many virgin nerds sitting at their desks, going "gimme, gimme gimme". 
And while lol cats and any other cute animal or fruit or anything may be a HUGE waste of my precious PC storage, it is a lot less shocking to find them rather than an expansive collection of naked people doing the horizontal mambo. So for your viewing pleasure I have included a few favorites of the oh-so-charming cute epidemic. May we all become LOL-zombies.

The Holy Church of Bacon

    Bacon is a glorious, glorious thing. Made from the semi fatty part of a pig and smoked to a perfection. Fry it up and do anything with it. They have chocolate covered bacon you know! Some people even wear bacon(though I wouldnt recommend that)
    I find bacon to be a universal understanding among meat lovers(vegans, sorry but....you guys just are really missing out). If you like meat, you love bacon. its why you never see individual sized portions of bacon at the store. I mean if i smell bacon i am so going to find the source of that smell and eat the source of that smell.
They have an entire website and church dedicated to the loveliness of bacon. You want the link? yes you do! Church of Bacon Wiki Now go to this place, worship the holiest of meats and feel like a fatty.

Memories of Him.

Tears stream down your face.
Triggered by
The reoccurance of history.
You thought,
He was ancient history,
Nothing more
Than a dot in your past.

Sparks fly,
Your brain is on the fritz
This reaction
You haven't had in a while.
Is it happiness?
Or just
An overwhelming desire to puke?

you people wana know what keeps me going? probably not, but imma tell you anyways.

Justin Walker He is...idk what..to me, but its very important. I love him, I can honestly say that. I cant say like a brother though, because that would be weird. Justin has been there and he is going through a hard time right now and I am sad for that but my heart goes out to him, as does every ounce of hope i can generate. Justin Walker, i WILL remember you.

Summer What about it doesnt have life pounding through it? You have drunken nights, summer love, summer lust, the weather OH! the beautiful weather. Its a season where the earth is just alive, its at its peak of aliveness! flowers bloom, trees billow, animals prance wildly. You got water, the very essence of life, all around you. the entire season is based off of it. I LOVE SUMMER. it keeps me coming back every year.

Jeans Imma say it, i like me some jeans. they are a staple to everything i wear. I go out and its a nice shirt with jeans. i am casual its a t shirt with jeans I am working its a ratty old shirt with jeans. jeans are what i wear, if they made jean underwear i would start wearing undies more often.

Drugs I am part of a cult called DRUGS, its a lovely little place full of the chillest people i have known. I am tlaking about regular drugs too though. everything is a drug, nicotine, caffine, THC. whatever, who cares. I have done drugs before, yes, they have taught me important life lessons, they have taught me, desicion making skills, they have taught me self control. I have learned what drug addict is, but also what a drug addict isnt. I saw things while on drugsthat made me ponder my way of life, it made me ponder where i am going in life, it has made me think about things i wouldnt have otherwise. thank god for drugs

Books Books, like drugs, have made me think. They have also provided hours upon hours of entertainment and education. Books take me away from where i am a gently set me in another world, where people perils are greater than mine, where some peoples lives are that of a tragedy. They remind me that while my day may suck, some one else is much, much worse off.

Nail Polish I once wrote a poem called "Ode to a bottle of Black Nail Polish" its awesome, its great, i love it dearly. all of it, every color you can imagine. i love slicking on the color, watching my hand be transformed from merely a hand, to a piece of art! viva la nail polish

Music It sounds so generic but i do enjoy music. I mean when something happens in my life, i have to find the most fitting song, there is always, ALWAYS a song that goes to any event that happens to me, whether it be mvoving out, getting a boyfriend, braking up, finding a job whatever! there is one out there, and i intend to keep my soundtrack going.

Me, Myself, and I Its true, i keep myself going. not to toot my own horn, but i am awesome. I genuinely think so, if i wasnt then why would i have such awesome friends? why would my family be so awesome? my would my guy be as aweosme as he is? I am overweight, yes. I dotn have the prettiest face and at times i can be a huge BITCH but its me, either take the package, or leave the whole thing, and i dont give refund on broken hearts

<3 <3 <3

Sometime in the Near Future

I hope to have a boyfriend, or boytoy, whichever. I just wanna have fun with a personfo the opposite sex really. I also hope to be in college and have a job that supports my needs. I wanna become better at HTML and that sort of thing. I wanna get my library card and actually read a book that I pick out. I wanna visit planned parenthood and get condoms, mostly for the fact of having the, secondly for the use. I hope to have a cell phone with texting. I hope to still be co-owner of a most wonderful forum. I hope to have finally made friends up here to where I can go to their house and spend the night and know its gonna be fun, my idea of fun.
I wanna go fishing on lake michigan.

I wanna kiss a guy. 

I wanna lay in the grass in the sun and get the most perfect tan I have ever got. I wanna look at the world and only see happiness, peace and a clean gulf. I wanna look at a person and tell them "hi" and have the greatest conversation int he world and never see that person again. I want to have more knowledge than I do now.

I wanna live.

 I wanna love.

I want to be a better version of me.

Things I would rather do than the dishes

1. Stab my eyes out with a rusty wooden spoon
2. eat moldy playdoh
3. get attacked by lesbian zombies
4. be eaten alive by mice
5. watch porn
6. make porn
7. go snowboarding
8. go swimming
9. get a sunburn in the form of lace
10. wear a diaper
11. have an alligator bite me in the ass
12. watch twilight
13. watch any crappy vampire movie(oh wait that was the only one)
14. fall in love with a gay man

Beards

Beards, ah wonderful, manly hairy beards. They are so awesome! A beard is the ultimate show of testoterone. Real men are too busy wrestling bears, fishing, and bringing home the bacon to take time to shave.
Who are you?
A man? or a little sissy girl playing with her dollies?
Granted, Im not telling every man with the ability to emit hair from their face to start growing a full blown beard.
 But every man needs a little fuzz on his face. I mean come one, there are like a gazillion different things to do with facial hair, and every single one of them are better than a bare face. especially if you have an ass for a chin.
Men like Seth Rogen.

and Zack Galifinikis (yes i probably spelled that wrong)

are real men. their beards, or man fuzz are hot. If I let any guy take advantage of me, it would be one of them, for sure. Their hairy, beastly manliness is what I'm talking about, i mean damn.

Pictures for Peace

Peace is Peace. Peace is not equal to war and war is not equal to peace. 

There is no subsitute for peace.

I just found a partial focus for this blog

Its a long story but its my blog and its your choice to read it or not. Honestly I am hoping that you are gonna read it, and be so completely moved that you...idk...shit your pants or something. Anyways here the story goes:

Damian Crow is a beautiful, wonderful man. I love him. Dont get this confused with me being in love with him. Granted I am attracted to him and i would totally want to screw his brains out, but i am not in love with him. But he had a blog. It was dedicated to police brutality....then spread into conspiracy theories, the occult, and the creation of a one world government. It was an awesome blog, had videos, articles, links and a bunch of other neat things. Many hours of my time were spent watching those videos and talking about them with him. 

Soon his blog was simply deleted, they said he broke the TOS for the site. This was not true, i read them myself. But this is another story, that one may be told soon, if I want my blog to be deleted. Since he was arguing with them he just made an extra profile page on the site we were both on to document all the sites and videos he had gathered.

Soon I created a forum so more people could access the videos. We wanted the word to get out to people, we wanted them to be informed and learn the truth. But then that site owner caused some trouble with Damian. Yet another story. So he deleted his account on there too. From there on out i was alone in my quest to help inform people. Damian had gone away with personal problems and moving and I was stuck. I was sad and alone. My forum was falling apart and no one was posting. 

So now here, in order to get back every part of Damian I can I want to instill part of him in my blog. I am going to post about war, peace, and anything he would have posted about in his blog. Not that I am going to stop posting other things. I love my spazzy, random, silly threads. He loves my spazzy, random, silliness so that will not change. :)

i love you

<3

This is the begining

and possibly the end. I dont finish what i start often....i just go and half way through it lose interest. Its why half way through a movie you will probably find me in the back seat asleep. But enough about me, lets get onto me. I like things, i dislike things, i listen to music, i breath and under most circumstances I wear clothes. I am a girl, doesnt mean i act or think like one. I get embarrased, i get angry. I talk about myself alot, i talk about other things too.

I am human.

I am Chelsea.

I am me.